My Plan

So I'm going to start my first blog with a little bit about myself. My past, my present, and what I'm looking forward to in my future and my goals. 


I'm 23 years old turning 24 in May and it's time to make some serious changes in my life. I'm currently living in Key West, FL. Most people would consider this paradise, I for one feel the exact opposite. Regardless I'm here and I'm in the situation I'm in. So, living in Key West with my mommy for the time being. I'm originally from Maine, I have lived in various parts of the United States. I always find my self happiest in colder climates. My #1 goal is to road trip and move out to South Lake Tahoe, CA with my departure date set for June 14th 2012, Flag Day. 


I feel as though the key word in there is road trip and the key I'm missing as of yet is a vehicle to get me there. So I'm starting my count down currently residing at 73 days. Still in search of a vehicle, what I really want is a 5 speed manual 4x4 with a sunroof. Now depending on where you live that is a very attainable goal. Since I'm not living in one of those locations where 4x4 are available I have decided to bite the bullet and buy a car. The goal for the car is to buy something out right, and in excellent condition so when I reach my destination I can sell it and buy the vehicle I really want. One major thing to know about me is I LOVE DRIVING, seriously it is my favorite thing to do. Just cruise around, listen to music, relax, and explore. 


Since living in this "paradise" I've been gaining a substantial amount of weight that I am very displeased about. Every time I live in a warm climate I get fat. I lived in San Diego, CA for a while and at first it was awesome then I started to get very depressed and ate to deal with the depression. Through a series of events I ended up moving to Colorado to live with my mommy and after a few more very unfortunate series of events I finally started to get my weight back in my control. I was happy and healthy living in a place when I could drive as much as I wanted and look at the beautiful mountains. By the time we left Colorado on January 7th 2011 I was basically back down to my comfortable weight. After living in Key West for a little over a year now (the longest I have lived anywhere since I left Maine originally) I'm back to the depressed over eating. 


I love mountains. I love snow. I love skiing. I love hiking. So I am determined to get to a place where I am happy and healthy again. Since I still have 73 days remaining I have decided that I am going to go on a juice fast. Which means I drink nothing but water and my own personal veggie and fruit juices. I ordered a juicer online and it should be arriving on Tuesday and I'm wicked excited! I've been reading and watching and researching juicing for the last week and I'm very excited to get started on it and get my weight back in my control. Also I am a smoker, I have been smoking since I was 17 and it's really time to take my life by the horns and make some serious changes. So the goal is to juice for 30 days then to continue for another 30 days with out smoking. Also living on this crazy little island I have turned into a drunk. I'm not gonna say alcoholic because I can go without drinking and I don't get sick or crave it or anything like that. Down here it's more of a social thing, everyone gets out of work and goes out drinking then sleeps all day wakes up goes to work and does it all over again. It's also time for me to put a complete stop to that, so the next 60 days I'm going to be completely sober.


Since I have so much I plan to do I've been putting myself under a lot of stress. I can't seem to shut my brain off, I day dream constantly and think of what I'm going to do. This has lead me to insomnia, I can't stop thinking long enough to sleep and I'm tired of drinking just so I can pass out and get a shitty night of sleep. Hence its 4:30 a.m. and I'm creating a blog online in hopes of writing about it will help me sleep better. So, I'm going to use this blog to help me and maybe 1 or 2 of you will follow along with my journey of life. I apologize in advance for any spelling errors and the poor grammar.


On my route to happiness,
Megan